Saturday, November 21, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
a bRush w/ FutiLity
Its so nice to have a yard in the big city...
Sometimes i run my hands through it and wonder if i'll still have it when i'm old...
I think i'll trim it this sunday...
Yesterday was the last yesterday i'll have until tomorrow...
I broke...
Don't take your teeth for granted...
a shark and his teeth are soon parted...
a vampire and his teeth are retarded...
suck it twilight fans...
The sky is blue today and so is my towel...
thats really all they have in common...
I prefer the consistency of my towel to the sky...
there is a good chance it'll be gray when today is yesterday and then my towel will most
likely spend the better part of the morning rejoicing in its uniqueness...
now its off to hug sons and daughters and have a talk with our Father...
blessing of every kind...
-James
Love Drunk... (an average day)
its sun stained and the memory my tan washed down the drain this morning...
I wrote a book that no one read and after read a book who authors dead...
I pushed hard against the floor... its no different for the encounter...
but I guess what doesn't kill me will only make breakfast longer...
I eight half this many eggs...
shut my eyes for a quarter 'fore one hole in my day i'll never get back...
Nimbus clouds gathering outside my widow blot out the sun as they bathe the city that never
sleeps...
but i'm dry the Son's bursting from my insides and producing true joy...
a sip of coffee... and a few more words... they tell you nothing...
i'm getting dressed...
goodbye!!
Monday, October 5, 2009
Spirit Escapes Flesh
Living in a big city affords me the opportunity to escape the reality of what i don't have... or do have... it doesn't matter...
My addictions are my new best friends...
These addictions ravage with a sick pleasure my opportunities at sanity, reality...
Time is a killer... because of time i die...
the tick tock of the clock is a death march....
i look back to see former seconds gasping for breath wishing I'd stopped to appreciate them...
But worry hurry... cracks the whip and i march on...
i take three seconds to shed a tear over past seconds wasted...
and as i do these three grimace at the irony of their existence...
High to high is my reality... and i pray for death...
to end this life that doesn't make any sense...
But as I pray my only god is me...
I'm the only one left to fulfill my needs...
so a slit throat here...
an a humiliation of another there...
are all sacrifices I execute for my pleasure...
but my need is still something to which these sacrifices could never measure...
so i sacrifice myself to end my demands...
though i wish to blame another...
im the one with red hands...
CLEAR!! and i feel a jolt...
and my heart beat recaptures my soul...
what the hell!! why didn't i die?!?
I am god... why didn't my body comply?!?
Bang bang!! I guess the bullets missed... my throat shut...
the knife failed to cut...
I'm so angry... I feel... alive...
and worse... a lack of control i cant deny...
so really... what is this all about...
in my own deity I have some doubt...
and thats when I remember my first love...
i've stopped time before...
and seconds...
well i've saved a few...
It was in those seconds I truly had peace...
because those seconds weren't dying as I passed...
but joining to form moments that would echo praise to a King...
they would last...
In these moments of new life begotten...
and mistakes forgotten...
So like the prodigal bloody and broken I come back...
receiving His blood...
Letting it wash my red hands...
and now... every second is redeemed...
and lies aren't demeaned... they're gone...
so this is a note to explain my suicide...
because it is no longer the lie (the lie is I) who lives...
I (the lie) will die...
but Christ in me... the hope of reality...
Monday, September 28, 2009
What's up in NYC #1

